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My best friend broke my heart
by shally2002,
Do you know that feeling? The one of a million voices in your head
The ones that say go and the ones that say stay a little while longer
The ones that give hope and the ones that make you crumble
I’ve heard those voices before and for a little while I enjoyed their company
They came to me in the form of the most beautiful man I have ever seen
Who as destiny would have it became my best friend
I told him everything and anything from start to finish
All my fears and dreams he knew about a hundred percent of them all
He was my number one supporter and my number one fan
I thought we had started to build something special
From the endless texts to chats to songs and vibing all day
He was the greatest form of company in my tender life
I hadn’t planned for the day my heart would give way to him
And I started to sink further and further into the depths of love
A feeling I had not experienced in the longest time
Soon afterwards a leap of faith enveloped around us
And he said the sweetest words to me
Making me believe we were getting somewhere
That he would be the one for me and stay with me
I dreamt of days in his arms in that tight hug
Days I would meet his parents and all his friends
Days he would shout at the mountain tops
That I was his leading lady
His queen the one that had his heart
I dreamt of all things being me and him
The journeys we would face together
Through thick and thin and no one else in-between
But little did I know that fairytales only exists in children’s stories
And do not play out in the lives of 18 year olds
It was far from ever getting to me
It’s no sin to dream and hope
But some dreams and hopes are not for everybody
They choose who gets them and those that don’t
And as the loving friend I ought to be
I supported him in loving another
Stabbing myself a million times in the chest with the dagger of pain
The day the words I dreaded the most came out from his lips
I knew that there was no permanent future for him and me
And I regret why I didn’t listen to my mother’s words
“Do not get for yourself a male best friend
He will only break you
The hurt will be unbearable”
Mother was right
If only I listened
Now I have to pay the price
The price of watching him loving another
And hoping I’ll always be there to give the support he needs
No matter how much this soul aches
And all the tears I've cried and songs of lament sung
None can truly mend this shattered heart
She would have to live and accept it for the rest of her days